Darkness

This past week, I have been alone, attacked by satan and self hatred...
 I really want to go back to not caring in TVR.
Home doesn't feel like home.

I got home and slept, on Saturday I heard from a friend he was sick, I said sorry hope you feel better thinking nothing of it until church at 5:30 pm I got so sick to my stomach...
 I felt like crap!
We got home and I just cried, it felt so nice to let out all my emotions.

I just wanted to be alone.
 and I got that...
Sad, alone and sad music and lots and lots of tears later I finally fell asleep on the floor in my sleeping bag.

I called it... I knew something would happen. If I knew what I know now I wouldn't have said somethings I said.

-Ashley